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I'm having one of those days. A friend of mine said something that I took way too personally, mostly because it reminded me of all the times I had been ostracized because of my lack of performative femininity. I certainly seem more feminine these days, but the external and the internal don't always match up. I don't understand a lot of women, but I'm not a man. I really dislike the binarist nature of gender complementarity. I just don't understand the desire to shove people into such small boxes. I always wonder if I should say something. Maybe I will. I don't want anyone to feel called out, but I honestly think people take for granted that their experience of their gender is typical. 

Anyway, I was reminded of this letter written by Franciscan friar Giovanni Giocondo in 1513:

I salute you. I am your friend, and my love for you goes deep.  There is nothing I can give you which you have not. But there is much, very much, that, while I cannot give it, you can take. No heaven can come to us unless our hearts find rest in it today. Take heaven! No peace lies in the future which is not hidden in this present little instant.

Take peace! The gloom of the world is but a shadow. Behind it, yet within our reach, is joy. There is radiance and glory in darkness, could we but see.  And to see, we have only to look. I beseech you to look!

Life is so generous a giver. But we, judging its gifts by their covering, cast them away as ugly or heavy or hard. Remove the covering, and you will find beneath it a living splendor, woven of love by wisdom, with power. Welcome it, grasp it, and you touch the angel’s hand that brings it to you.

Everything we call a trial, a sorrow or a duty, believe me, that angel’s hand is there. The gift is there and the wonder of an overshadowing presence. Your joys, too, be not content with them as joys. They, too, conceal diviner gifts.

Life is so full of meaning and purpose, so full of beauty beneath its covering, that you will find earth but cloaks your heaven. Courage then to claim it; that is all! But courage you have, and the knowledge that we are pilgrims together, wending through unknown country home.

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It seems like I will pass all of my classes this semester. Grad school is difficult. Not because the work is necessarily hard, but because there is just SO. MUCH.

This is the first day in a whole month that I've been able to sleep in. My body woke up a 8am (yes, this is sleeping in at my advanced age) and was like WHOA. The past few weeks have been a roller coaster and I have been hitting the shrines and chapels at the Basilica of the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception like crazy. I even lit a votive candle! The Struggle Class ended yesterday and it was suggested that I completed it adequately enough to advance. The professor made me so nervous I went Full Catholic for my final presentation. I wore my giant crucifix and my St. Margaret of Cortona (my patroness) medal. (Also, a giant string of pearls and a velvet jacket-- I probably looked like a queer Barbara Bush, but just go with me here.) I have one more class to go, which wraps up next week.

Prayer pays off. Here are the things I am thankful for:
  • A new Dragon Age game is coming out. We finally got the teaser trailer:


  • It's the Solemnity of the Immaculate Conception tomorrow, which means I get Mass twice this week.
  • I'm attending an awesome Christmas production in DC this weekend.
  • There are so, so many people who care about me and have just reached out to let me know over the past few weeks.
  • I have a lot of awesome books on the way to read over my break, including Circe by Madeline Miller.
  • This Trans & Christian Bible Study by Austen Hartke. Love, love, love it.
  • One more class to finish until I'm free!
I'm really hoping I can get some work and reading done over the break. My biggest challenge right now is that they are messing with my schedule for next semester and I really hope that that resolves itself sooner rather than later. I have been tiny and short-tempered with the grad adviser, so I definitely brought this on myself. I'm sure I'll persevere in the end. 
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Pergolesi knew what was up. This is the best version of the Magnificat I have ever encountered.

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Dec. 4th, 2018 02:44 pm
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Wow...I'm kind of surprised at how hard it is to write here even though I used to utilize this kind of platform all the time 15+ years ago. I mean I remember Diaryland LOL. That was waaaaaaay back. Tumblr is such a hot mess. I'm really too old for it, anyway.

I have a bunch of fandoms that I follow, aside from being into Catholicism and whatnot. I need to add them to my profile, I guess.

My last entry was kind of sad, so I deleted it. I'm not sad. I'm not even really all that confused. I'm completely unused to airing my grievances online after having been in Microblogging World for so long. Maybe this will be a welcome return?

Unrelated: I love Advent. It's my favorite season in the church year. I am rocking out so hard to these Spotify Advent playlists.

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